Showing posts with label #my #life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #my #life. Show all posts
5 Jul 2013

Silence Gathering.

Just dominated as committee of the
Hospitality and Tourism Society.
 
So, I am "planned" to have a really busy months before I graduate.
 
The coming event:
Mentor-mentee event (organize by me)
Gala Night (something like a prom night, but only for our society members)
Mentor-mentee II (by me too)
School tour
The B plan
 
FUH...
 
Lots of them are coming.
And my exam is coming in the next couples of weeks.
 
Busy, yet, love it.
 
                                                                                                                                                                          
 
Last few weeks,
my friend, Yoong came back from Pahang. That was her school holidays.
She went back to Penang about 3 weeks.
 
The first two weeks,
we had camp together.
ARTC, by the GB and BB.
 
 The last day, before she went back to Pahang.
We went out together, to James Foo at the All Season Place.
And she asked Jason and Irish to join with.
 
At first, I didn't want to go. But she begged me to accompanied her.
So, I went.
 
I fetched her at the bus stop in front of her apartment.
she: "I think they are already there."
me: "They? I thought only Jason is going?"
she: "No, Irish goes too."
me: "Oh, ok. I think later on I for sure have no conversations in the gathering."
 
When we reached the restaurant,
they saw us.
Irish felt very happy to see Yoong, (I think she hug her).
Then, we sat down.
They started their conversations.
And I kept quiet for the 2 hours.
 
Why I kept quiet?
1st, I have no topics to talk with Jason, since the last time I met him.
I also don't know why, he just didn't want to talk much like we used to.
2nd, I am not Irish's favourite.
Since, form 4, Irish was so sayang Yoong.
Every time she saw Yoong, she will hug her and very happy.
Even, the domination for the GB position, I only be the Vice Secretary.
While, Fern, the one not really active like I did, she be the Vice Chairman.
I don't like her.
 
In the gathering,
Jason tried to talk to me,
touched my shoulder.
Asking me questions.
But, I just smiled and nodded.
 
I don't want to talk much to him.
if not, he will feel annoyed.
 
after the gathering,
Jason and Irish said to me, next time we meet again and chat.
I feel that the word "meet again and chat" is so funny.
Yoong came back from Pahang, they can spent time with her for the gathering.
While me, still stay at Penang, and everyday will pass by their housing area, and every time I asked Jason out, he said he is busy.
 
what the fuck?
you treat me like shit is it?
like I'm very annoying,
like I every time ask you out.
like I don't have friends but you only.
 
You really make me piss off!
 
Why are you so selfish?
Always think of yourself only?
 
Jason,
f*ck you!
 
 

17 May 2013

我的家人—— 比电视剧还精彩!!!

我,
跟其他人一样。
有一个家庭。

可是,
我的家人齐不齐全呢?

其实,
我有一个很复杂,很复杂,很复杂的家庭。
从我的双亲说起吧。
我爸,有两个老婆。
第一个老婆:两个儿子
第二个老婆(我妈):一个女儿(我)

我妈, 有两个老公。
第一个老公:一个儿子,一个女儿
第二个老公(我爸):一个女儿(我)

所以,
我有两个 “同父异母” 的哥哥
我有一个哥哥和一个姐姐 是 “同母异父”

故事是从我妈开始:
我妈和前夫生下我哥跟姐后,跟前夫离婚。
因为前夫想要“砍”我妈, 所以离婚咯。

然后,
我妈遇见我爸。
有了我。
名是说他们是我爸妈,可是他们没结婚。
原来,我爸已经有老婆了。
现在,我妈是小老婆了。

 所以,
我还蛮可怜的啦。

小的时候,
我,妈和爸 住在北海。
那时, 我爸妈在那开咖啡店。
所以,爸爸星期一到四都会住跟我们。
星期五晚上,爸就会回槟城,大老婆家了。

那是,
可以说是我最幸福的时刻了。
因为,都有爸妈陪我。

但是,
那时候,我妈是最辛苦的。
开店的基金,都是我妈出的。
全部劳力都是我妈的功劳。

每到星期五,
爸就会拿赚到的钱拿回槟城。
我妈赚到的钱,一天才RM30.
她还要供我补习,学游泳 和学画画。
我爸,也重来没有出钱过。

每星期一,
爸从槟城回来,
都会跟妈拿钱去买菜。

到了我要读国中时,
我们就搬到槟城和我的姐姐和姐夫住。
(我姐住对面栋,不同屋子,但同地区)
因为,我妈她的脊椎有问题,不能再操劳了。
去槟城,妈就靠照顾姐的儿子为生。

那我爸呢?
他就回大老婆那里。
可笑的是,
大老婆家,就在1km可以到的范围而已。

但,自从我们搬去槟城后,
看见爸的次数,就与日俱减。
到现在,
爸爸,
就好象是陌生人一样。

记得上一次他来,
我看见他,
连叫,我都没叫。
因为,他给我的感觉,很陌生!

距离上次他来看我们家时。
好想是一年多前了。

我想不想我爸?
说不想是骗人的啦。
但是,
我想的是我小时的爸,不是现在的。
他太没有心了。
好像,都不是人!

所以,
现在,都出来工作来减轻妈的负担。

非常感恩的是,
我的姐姐和姐夫,
非常照顾我们。

你问我有没有因为没有爸爸而非常沮丧呢?
我的答案是:重来没有。
因为没有爸,
我跟坚强呢!
虽然,
有时看到,电视在播,主角和爸很亲密时。
我会很心酸。

(叹气)
真是复杂啊。。。

 
 

8 Mar 2013

善变的你-- 温度计

跟你相处了那么长的时间,
都已经知道。
你是一个很善变的人。

遇到A人,
就变成A人。

遇到B人,
就变成B人。

虽然,
我们的这一个友谊,
很不固定,坚固。

就像一个温度计,
会随着你的温度来跳。

你对我好时,
那温度计,
快爆表了。

你对我冷漠时,
那温度计,
就像坏掉一样,
连零度都没到。

想想,你有几次的心动呢?
要做 模特儿
要做 空中少爷
要做 厨师
要做 歌手
要做 生意人
要做 讲师
要做 辩论员
要做 新闻主播
要做 摄影师
要做 时尚男

算算,
不知还有几多没记录起来呢。

现在,
又被周围的影响,
有改变心意了。

你,
很没主见。

我,
不够了解。

还是回到,
最普通的友谊吧。

就让时间,
慢慢洗礼我对你的感情。

放下,
不是一天,
就能完成。

就慢慢,
的解脱吧。



Diet? Become DIE!

WHAT THE HELL?!
I promised myself that i need to get ready and ready for the diet.

After a few months,
what is the conclusion?
Well, 
no improvement.
But, 
many "dis-provement"!

These few weeks,
I ate a lot.

Maybe because of the job I'm having now.
I just need to sit still.
Then the salary will come to my pocket.

Ya, 
I'm working at boutique.
Seriously boring.
Boring = Nothing to Do
Nothing to Do = Find Something to Do
Still Don't Have Anything to Do = Find Something to Eat
Find Something to Eat = Cannot Stop Eating
Cannot Stop Eating = Gain Weight
Gain Weight = Become Fat
Become Fat = Sad
Sad = Eat Again
 

This cycle,
really is a curse!
A curse that cannot be overcome by ME!!!!

I really hope I'm a great witch,
then, I can put this curse far away from me!!!!!


Actually,
this is not a curse.
It's just a mentally encouragement.
Because,
I just received a bad news.

He got his "coffee".
so,
I was left behind.
 And what is the point I need to work so hard for him?

But now, 
I don't care about him.

Just live my life, perfectly without him anymore.
GET OUT OF MY WORLD FROM NOW ON!
J!
 

29 Jan 2013

Promise the promises!

"Promise"
I have made a lot of promises since I was 12 years old!
The very 1st: ON DIET!
2nd: change attitude (bcs I was quite aggressive  XD) 
3rd: be patient to others
4th: become more confident
and many more...

Well,
the second, third and forth promises,
I accomplished! 
I changed into more "kind-hearted"  compared to last time.
Be more patient to the others compared to last time.
Become more confident compared to last time.

BUT!!!
The FIRST one always cannot succeed!!! 
WHY!!!
~Tell me why~

Alright,
you don't need to tell me.
I know that reason too.
I am too in love in food.
ok, I admit that...
and, I do not like to exercise.
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27/1/2013
I went out with Egg,
she told me she is on diet-ing.
at that moment, I wasn't really concern about what she was bla bla bla..

28/1/2013
I whatsapp Egg:
"I want on diet. We challenge ourselves
If one of us win this contest, the other one will give the winner reward"

Yap, I'm in the competition.
But, the terms and conditions are quite impossible for me...
Achieve weight: 55 kg for me, 49 for her
Due Date: April

OMG,
how could this impossible to me?
Egg now is 50 something
Me.... way more far than her...
of course she will win this competition...
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Whatever,
I just assume this as a path to encourage me!

People!
Please STOP OBSESSING me!
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PLEASE

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5 Dec 2011

慢下脚步来看世界吧

前几天,心情很不愉快。
所以,傍晚一个人出去散散步。
当时,我想了很多东西。
想来想去都是想不通。
就静下心来。
一边走一边看风景

我怎么也不会想到
平时都是很赶时间的进进出出的那条路,其实它也是很美丽的。
虽然,给那些没有交通的人,走这条山路很吃力。
根本就不会去欣赏这个风景,反而会一直在心里想 “到底几时才可以走到家?我快要喘死啦!”。
但是,当我装上了耳机,一边听音乐,一边散步。
才发现原来不是这样的。
在这条路的两侧,有很多居民都花了很多心思,栽种了许多蔬菜水果。
不过,给以前的我来看,只会说 “无聊!反正都不会有人会去在乎!”

现在,想了想。其实不是这样的。
那些都是自己的心血,为何要去在乎别人的在不在乎呢?!
其实,只要自己有做过、有尽过力就可以了。
但同时,那些蔬菜水果当然也不可以栽种到路中间,阻碍去路。
不要因为别人没有在乎你,你就不要在乎别人的重要。

这条山路,
对普通人来说,达到目的地的路程很遥远,很疲惫。
但,用另一个脚步去看,就不一样了。

同样的,
就算别人讲一个人有多丑陋,多裴略,或者一些表面的话。
只要自己用另个角度想就不同了。


这件事使我不能安眠,趁妈睡了偷哭。
眼睛肿到不敢看妈,深怕妈担心。
想通后,发现...
陈慧玲!很幼稚!

答应自己,
无论怎样。
还是要从长计议。
想到脑都爆脑浆!
18 Nov 2011

that's why i recently din't put my pic!

last month, 
i had change my profile pic in FB.

changed from my own big head pic(大头照)to this


that's because of my "BEST FRIEND"!


well... he always laught at me that im very ugly and old and some kind of bad words!
argh! sh*t!

Best Friend, i know you're very good looking...
please... dont say it out in front of tuns of people!

ok... forget about it then...
i have cut my hair into very short! (i mean how short i prefer, but not as short as Y2)


went to school, my friends ask when i wanna cut, because i DO NOT want to cut it before...
hehe


but... quite nice la... hehe
i really hope SPM will be finished right now!
then, i can dye my hair as many colours as i want! (crazy?!)




WITH THIS HAIR...
I look YOUNGER!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!
17 Nov 2011

Life after SPM?!


Long time dont open my blog and facebook adi...
well... u know... SPM is running now...



BM, BI, SJ and MM have finished....
left 6 more...
but now i am very very sure that i got 1A in my hands...
that's math! i mean that'a for sure! haha

now, SPM have only six more to concentrate...
well, now im ready realise what's life after exam...


im sure its very challange and BORING!

haha.... im very nervous how's it going to live alone in other country...

hopefully, it's fun and my friend can also go with me...


scare that after spm, all the friends forget about all our memories...
I LOVE MY LIFE AT SCHOOL!!!



 
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